Work.

Sometimes
things just don't go the way you want them to,
even though you've tried so hard to make it work.

Back.

I can't remember the last time that just seeing someone smile made me so happy.
I can't remember the late time i've smiled this genuinely.


Thank you,

not only for an amazing day,
but for giving me back something i'd lost long ago.

Don't Stop.

Don't stop trying.

Because once you stop trying...






it's all over.

Liar.

Just take a deep breath,

swallow your emotions,

and put on a smile




Because in the end, you're only lying to yourself.

Patience Is a Virtue.

I want to be there for you when you need someone to listen,
i don't care how much or how little it bothers you


I care.


But i guess i'll have to be patient, huh?

Worth.

I can't believe i'm crying...

Haha.
What a stupid thing to cry over.



You're not worth it.

Go Fucking Die.

Fuck you.

Seriously, fuck you.

Dear self.

You're only digging the hole deeper and deeper.
You're making yourself unhappy.

Stop thinking about the past,
Stop thinking about other's pasts.
Stop thinking in general.

Stop going 'what if'
and instead,
take things as they come.

Just because other people's lives are going down the drain right now,
doesn't mean your life has to.

You have people who care.
You're not alone.


You're being incessantly obsessive.
Let the past go.
















Now if only i could take all that to heart.

Special.

It's not that i think your dress looks ugly.
it's just that for my grad, i want to have a perfect dress.

Not a dress that looks 'okay'





I want this to be special.
It's not because i want to waste money.
do you THINK i like spending that much money on a dress?
no. i don't.
If you think i do, clearly you don't know me.


The reason i'm willing to spend that much on a dress is because i want this to be MY grad.



I'm not even angry or frustrated anymore.


I'm just upset.

Childish.

I'm so immature.

Stranger.

It feels like i don't know you anymore.

Missing You Again.

I don't know why i have this sudden overwhelming feeling.
But,
i thought you'd like to know...




I miss you.

Me.

I've decided

I'm going to stand strong.
Hold my head up high.
Because this is my life
and only i can control my emotions.
I'm not going to let it bother me because you know what?
Even though you're a part of my life,
it's MY life.

I'm not going to be that little girl anymore.

I'm going to be me. and Damn proud of it.

A Matter of Understanding.

It might not matter to you,
but it sure as hell matters to me.

Grip On Reality.

Haha...

I'm so pathetic.
Get a grip already.

Slow and Steady.

it seems like slowly


you're drifting away.