All I Need.

Where is the safest place for me?

I'm tempted to answer that question with two answers; answers that no one but me will like.

I'm safest when i live only in other people's memories.
A memory cannot change.
It is there forever, unchanging and unrelenting.
The emotions, the words, the feelings, the warmth, the sadness...
it all stays the same.
There are bad memories too, but there are also many good ones.
It is through the experiences in our memories that we begin to truly cherish those around us.
If i lived only in someone else's memories, i would be however they wanted to remember me as forever.
I could be kind, cute, funny, mean, bitchy or a combination of all of those...
but i would never change.
I would stay the same...

and no one could touch me.

Of course... to live only in memories has the implication that i wouldn't be alive anymore. Which i guess would be a big...factor.

The second answer would be locked away inside my dream world.
or in other words, locked up inside my own mind.

Here, i have everything that i've ever wanted.
Here, i am happy.
Here, no one can touch me.

In my dream world, Az is there.









and Az is all i need.