Waiting.

It bothers me when i hear about people cutting themselves or anything of the sort.

I don't understand.
Why good does hurting yourself do?

I know that i used to be like that...
but i can't remember for the life of me why the hell i did it, because it sure as heck didn't solve anything.

By hurting yourself, you hurt those around you who actually do care.

I freaking care.
I may not always be there, i might not be your closest friend, but fuck it man, i care.

You don't have to go through everything alone you know.
People are there to listen; people are there to help.
Everyone always says 'well, if someone actually cared for me, i wouldn't be like this right now'.
Excuse me? open your eyes and take a look around you. We're all here for you, you've just been too blinded by your pain and irrationality to actually see it.

I'm not mad at the people for being so stupid as to even do something like this, because let's face it, we've all been there and done that. We can all understand what pushes us to go to such extremes.

But, i'm just frustrated that you didn't come to me earlier.
Do you not trust me?
Or maybe you just don't care enough about yourself to actually get help?
I want to help you.

I'm upset because you're upset.
I'm hurting because you're hurting.

You don't have to go through it alone you know.
I want to help you, but i need you to let me help you.

This blog isn't directed at only one person either.
I know lots of my friends cut.
And i have a sneaking suspicion that there are some who still haven't told me.
I can't do anything if you don't tell me what's wrong.

I can't fix something if i don't know it's broken.

When you hurt yourself, that's like saying: 'i don't care about what you've done to help me' to those who actually care and have made a difference in your life.

This depression is a stage in life that we all go through.
You just have to get past it. See the bigger picture; see past the pain.

I've past it already.

I'm just waiting for the rest of you now.