Static.

Everyone is moving forwards.

Things are changing,
people are changing,
I'm not.

Why?

There's only so much that i can change into before i lose myself completely.

I'm scared that if i change anymore, i'll forget who i was to begin with.
I want to be me.

I want to be happy by being me.
I need to change
otherwise i'll be left behind.

I can't change,
because if i change anymore, i won't be me any longer.
I'm too easily lost.
Other people can change as much as they want during their lifetime, and they'll never forget who they are.
I will.
It's because i don't like the real me
that i'm so easily lost.

If i change...

I'll just be an empty shell full of lies that i used to call 'me'.

Sometimes...



sometimes i wish that i wasn't me.