Love.

It was sort of odd really...

Last night i had this fleeting feeling of holding a baby in my arms.

And for some reason, it seemed really nostalgic.
Like i'd done it before.
Like it was the most natural thing in the world.


I actually sat there for quite a long time trying to remember if i actually HAD done something like that before.

I don't mean just holding a baby, because clearly i've done that several times,
but
actually openly expressing my love for a baby

I don't openly express my affections for babies with other people around
i'm just not comfortable with it,
but i've always loved them so much
I've always had this paternal instinct


But it was weird.
Just...
for a moment i could FEEL the softness of the baby's skin.

and i actually felt love

I don't know why i suddenly felt like that.

Maybe i was hallucinating.


But either this is a memory that i can't remember...
or my dreams are becoming too real.