Desire.

I'm not suicidal.
I've past that stage.
I'm not emo or depressed.
I've past that stage as well.

I'm just tired.
The ever-growing desire of wanting to just sit in the corner of a dark, empty room is overwhelming.

I want to be alone in the dark.


I'm not running away.
I'm not pushing people away.
I'm not being 'childish' or an 'attention seeker'.

I just need the darkness.
It comforts me so much.

If people can't understand that...
That's fine.

I never asked for anyone to understand it.



All i asked for was for someone to come open the door once in a while and take me outside.
Someone to be there.
But also someone who knows when to leave me alone.
Who lets me have the darkness.

The desire for solitude
The desire for companionship.
Conflicting values.
But equally strong.