Ending.

I finally made a decision :)

here's what i said, word for word:

i've decided. My answer is this: I will just let things be. I won't try to be friends with you if you clearly don't want it. I'll only try if you bother to try. Whether or not you stay in my life or not doesn't matter to me anymore because it hoenstly feels to me that you would rather i just disappear anyways. If that's hte case, then so be it. But know this,
it would make me happy if i could still talk to you because you are still precious to me. You said you didn't want the memories to shatter, but what i see is that you're trying to shatter them by distancing yourself. It's up to you whether or not you want to keep the memories whole.
Well. that's my answer. See you =) i hope that in the end, things work out.


I actually had a better sounding blurb in my head, but when i finally managed to find him on my msn i'd forgotten it =(
damn me and my terrible memory.



But...

i'm happy with my decision.
Because even though he is still precious to me,
i know i will still be able go on without him in my life.


Remember this,
tomorrow will always be better, and if it isn't? well then, i guess today wasn't so bad :)


I know i will find someone else.


Don't worry if you're single,
God is probably looking down and thinking: "I'm saving this one for someone special" <3


But... i will say this:
it was good while it lasted.
He made me happy. I really did love him. He was everything i wanted in a guy.
So now all i have to do is wait until a better guy comes along,
someone who wants to be with me forever.
I say forever because even though there's no such thing, i want to believe. :)

So until then,
i guess i'm just going to have to be patient. :)


Thank you Kevin Seto, for making me happy, if only for just a little while.

I'm glad that this ending was much better than my last.


04/4/2011 ~ 01/5/2011